Time seems to move the slowest when there are too many thoughts swirling through your mind. But amidst the chaos, which I call “mind”, a solitary thought prevails and you focus on that one thought which could perhaps bring you towards a sense of orderliness. That one thought makes you breathless and everything around you seems to disappear and everything seems to be trivial; even your own existence. In that moment, you are truly alone in this cosmos. This thought gives you the warmth of the morning sun and sooths you in your dreams while you sleep. It makes you want to scream, to cry, to laugh, to run; its makes you irrational. There are millions and millions of questions in this world. They make you ponder, make you crave for the knowledge that the answers could bring and sometimes they drive you to distraction. But unfortunately, when you ponder and search for answers, moments pass by, life happens and you would have missed out on almost everything. Once you realize that years have passed by and you have no or very little proof of actually being a part of it, all that you can do is mourn for the loss time. In the course of actions and choices that have led you have too deep an impact on you to even recognize regret when you have one. You have everything and you have nothing. The only way to escape this darkness is to hope that someone would reach out a hand and lead you towards light; towards life.
- spookie nights, Notes to each other
there’s more to this quote, one might call the “conclusion” to this small tale, but i’m sure i’m not there yet, so i’d keep this one and, maybe in the near future, post the rest.
